life sucks.
hey world.

just came back from design class at chijmes with the d&t peeps. dead lazy to upload pics so maybe another time. after that ate at long john with hazique, faatin, and zul. man, they sure know how to make me laugh until i can choke on cheese and coke. hahaha. then, went home alone, read a book in the train all the way home. depressing i tell you.

at home, everyone was all dressed, mum asked if i wanted to follow them out, i shrugged and didnt want to go and she got all naggy. i just ignored her and slept. one second after she was out i went to the comp. and fuck i need a cig like hell. anyway, iqah's going out later and although i wanted to go ou today and i started out chirpy, i dunno, things just took a turn and im all moody and gloomy now. i think i know why. im just hoping its my period coming. haha.
i caat wait till iqah is out. beats me why i like being home ONLY when i'll be alone. ahaa. and heyyy. i saw mr. abg jup hansem in the morning. hehehehehehe. *giggles*.

life gets extra mundane and everything in me feels dead. okay so maybe i seem okay and still laughing like i always do, i just get afraid when friends start leaving and doing what they do. or going to their bfs or gfs. BELIEVE ME, i am so not desperate to be in any relationship right now. all i wanna do is sleep and eat.
i can't stand people telling me off when im trying to control my burning temper they say im not and when i actually do they get all up in my face telling me i fucking overreact. well dont come and get all upset with me if youre the one with the mental issues. fuck people.
i just feel so dead inside and i'd do anything to feel alive. gosh i sound so sadistic. enough of my woes. get back on with your lives people, and give thanks to god your life isnt like mine. =D

and oh, anyone willing enough to gimme a whole pack call me. im dying here. haha.

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