birthday (part two) .
hey world.

after rotting at home watching tv, parents told me to get dressed and we went for dinner at bedok. after that, iqah asked me to come over to jamilah's house cause she was there. when i opened her door, it was dark. on the dining table, there was this. (: kay, pics talk.





iqah, jamilah, elfi, khairil, aisha. THAAAAANK YOU for cheering me up. SITI !!! for the uber sweet post too la oke. and all the wishes. alon, taggers, friendster comments, all ! .
HAZIIIIIIQUE i swear to god that post is the bomb and its friggin sweet and thankyou thankyou thankyou.
PAUL yes yes yes yes yes you also. always always there. :D

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kay so. done with your part? MY TURN NOW. i will now speak my deepest inner feelings on this friggin blog of mine and its up to me to decide if you can be affected or not. you got me ? good. you ask people to read my blog? k good. let them hear MY side of the story. you not happy, go and blog at your own blog. i got nothing else to lose. piss off. (:

honestly. i asked you if you felt like you wanna patch with her, you told me you 'dont wanna talk about it'. goes to show right? that 'we', aint 'we' no more?? you tell me, 'bb pls..' NO. i should be the one saying that kay. i should be the one mad and fuming cause i loved you with my heart and soul and now, i realise that you havent really gotten over her and i feel like a fucking fool to actually believe your words when they were probably all just crap.
here's a tip people. you still in love with your friggin ex? TELL THEM , BITCHES. dont get involved with others and end up hurting them cause last minute; 'oh, sorry, i still want him/her.' CAUSE ITS FUCKIN, NOT ACCEPTABLE.
i swallowed my ego, and told you to let me go, cause i dowanna be ruining your happy life okay. if she really was all that in your eyes, why the fuck did you have to come to me? i put myself in your shoes, the night you told me about the family thing. i did NOT say anything. i reflected, and wondered how you felt. i kno it must be hard after spending so much time with that someone and suddenly pushing her out of your life. but fuck, dont you think its a little too late to be telling me all this? @$!%@#$!
gyeah, you gave me all that. and what? i dont give you that too? fuck it. you say you've got your reasons? save them. i dont need them, neither do i need your apologies. really.

that's it. im done. im through with you. im through with assholes who are just so full of themselves. im through with wondering why things became this way.

never again, will i fall for fucking dickheads who lie to me. never again will i cry when i realise im hurt. never again will i breakdown in front of others, for the second time. never again will i cry. cause the emotions are just all dried up ; gone.

thanks for the best birthday present. you took the liberty of breaking my heart.
too harsh for you to handle? deal with it. im heartless ; you made me.

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