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Food for thought.
Hey world.
Just finished another novel from Paulo Coelho; The Devil and Miss Prym. Just some stuff I thought of sharing,. " It is always easier to hear an insult and not retaliate than have the courage and fight back against someone stronger than yourself; we can always say we're not hurt by the stones others throw at us, and it's only at night- when we're alone and our wife or our husband or friend is asleep- that we can silently grieve over our own cowardice. " " Anyone who loves with the expectation of being loved in return is wasting their time. " So long, _xoxo. Labels: mixed feelings.
Running low on tranquilisers,
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 I couldn't sleep. I just got back from Kuala Lumpur a few hours ago. Spent my weekends there since dad had a meeting and stuff. Anyway. I was almost drifting off to sleep, but. I guess there's so much still circling around in my head that I just couldn't huh. Something just doesn't feel right. I don't think I have insomnia, or do I ? Haha. Let's recount the days. Err, yes. Friday the 13th. Boy, a hell of a night. Met the hobo♥ at his place, waited for the rest for fucking long, bought the shit and only started at east coast at about 9pm. Downed i-don't-remember-how-many-shots, went for a swim, ticked off stuff that need to be accomplished on my 'to do before I die' list. Haha, fulfilled. ^^ Luckily I puked all the crap out enough to be sober when I got home. Thanks for the ride Mario. <3 Kay so then yeah, weekends at KL. Oh, got my hair rebonded again. And I need to re-think about attending prom. As meaningless as I know it's gonna be, I don't know if I'm strong enough to face it alone. There, I said it, honest. Fuck I'm such a loser. -.- But then again, Fuck it man, who gives a shit. What do all these people want from me anyway ? Geez, piss off. Okay I sumpah swear really need a smoke. Sweetdreams, xx. Labels: mixed feelings.
undescribable feeling.
hey world.
today is a boring day. morning breakfast with faatin at mr teh tarik, didnt eat much. took the bus to school, ( chillax ruzanaaa ) had math, social studies, d&t marker rendering course, then home. no india meetings today, but there's an important one tmr ? and i had nothing to do in the afternoon. bleargh, wasted. home, played with dameera, watched tv, hibernate ... zzZZ ( ! ). eventually, here i am. fuck i need a cig ! -.-" and oh, browsing through some old pics, i found these. *old times.  bahh, take out the aeroplane's wing. -.-  white sands library.  oh gosh i miss you. adam levine !so okay, i'm done. not gonna put in too much hope. countdown to baybee's birthday ! (; Labels: mixed feelings., nobody knows;
oh boy.
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today, school as per normal, no malay, so met faatin for our daily perangai gemok-ness but today met at mr. prata, had breakfast and continue chatting. haha. walked to school at 9, had social studies. eyes droopy by the 11th minute but hand kept on copying down notes. ( amazing siaaa ) oke so then after ss continued with the marker rendering course for d&t, so fun lah so sad tmr last day. booo. after school stayedback for india trip meeting, made the dance performance and left school, went to the interchange and topped up my ezlink. then went to meet rikh at the stadium there and lepak-ed with him, kiwi, hafiqal, alon and abbas at around 800+. left at about 6.30+ ? rikh sent me home. showered, ate dinner. here i am. chatting with aliouss. feeling quite bored actually, but shit lah i'm out of ben & jerry's ice cream. grrr. till next time. toodles noodles readerrrrs. Labels: mixed feelings., nobody knows;
problems.
hey world.
okay so i think today is quite a day. let's start the recount. woke up early for classes but when i was already dressed turns out that i would not start lessons until like, 2 and a half hours later so arranged to meet faatin at afghan macs since she was early too. haha. so we had breakfast there, and chatted and caught up with each other. since like what it seems like foreverrrr. okay, after that walked to school, bought two packets of skittles ( haha ) and then had chemistry, followed by marker rendering course which was super interesting.  something fucked up kinda happened, another bloody shitass anonymous fucker encounter and my phone went beserk and lost connection or something. i had no damn mood to go for the india trip meeting, ( sorry you guys ). walked out of school, met up with lenny and fad and nisa ( missed you babes ) then walked to north park bustop together, and i bus-ed home. oh, saw nurwul. haha. okay, dah. once home, showered and changed and met up with err, rikh okay i am done with my updates. toodles noodles, goodnight readers. & i'm sorry to disappoint. your fingertips across my skin, Labels: mixed feelings., nobody knows;
necklace !
hey world !
time for updates ! come to think of it, i have no idea why i blog. i mean, besides of it being a stress reliever and blablabla. anyway ! yesterday woke up early ! went breakfast at little india with the whole family. then home, iqah went for tuition. soon after papa got work. -.- so then i went to paul's open house alone, jam had tuition too, so yeah i went first.  ate yummy food and chilled a bit before going off, then took a bus from bedok interchange to go to vivo. waited for almost half an our for siti, dah lah i was PMS-ing. but luckily it was under control lah. hhahaha. so anyway ! walked around, i got a new top ( yay! ) and then went to eat at banquet. and finally. our ritual of rooftop-ing was done after like donkey monkey kong years of not doing that. lol. chatted, gossipped, sang, laughed out loud, smoke ( not her lah ), eat gummy, hahaha like usual. ohhh i love watching the sky. ( yay ).
so okay. soon after we left and we bought matching transparent umbrellas ! which lol, i've uber secretly wanted for a long time cos like its soo cool. imagine if its raining and you use that umbrella and you look up and you can like watch the rain fall like, on you ! hahaha. ( yay ). so okay. then went home, at tampines mall there had a weird encounter with a middle aged man stammering a 'can i get to know you? ' at me. -.-" Sunday ! haha. woke up quite early, watched tv. showered and got dressed. me, mama and nana took train to eunos and meet papa at some building. he was surveying cars. the current toyota picnic is like uber old already ( i think ) so yeah he's getting a new one. im like damn it i want the toyota estima cos i think its uber nice and huge and lol the best part ! = the sliding door is auto so i just have to like use the handle but it automatically opens for me ! ( haha uber FAT ). yay. but i dunnoe, mama and papa are gonna consider again so who knows. haha. and like is it just me or the weather is like fucking hot ? car salesman said that its 37degrees approx. *YIKES.   anway ! after surveying cars went to geylang, had lunch there and the went to joo chiat cos me and nana are making made to order name pendants ! woohoohoo ! ( yay ) so its ordered already. and so now im left to wait for a month at the maximum. ( boo ) but anyway. yeah. haha. so okay, i guess that's about it. im kinda excited that tomorrow im only left with d&t and then im done ! speaking of which after school gotta go to woodlands for naddy's open house. haha. till tomorrow. i better charge my camera. lol. toodles noodles peeps ! :D Labels: mixed feelings.
porky pig.
hey worlddd.
today i woke up late, again. but i reached school on time, even in time for assemly, lol. four periods of the same teacher back to back and i was kinda dying. haha. and ohh, during geog i was tryina finish my d&t worksheet and mdm speaker took it but i was like arguing and keeping a firm grip on it. eventually i let her take it and to tunjok perangai, i went to sleep while she blabbered on about malnutrition and whatever food shitz. :D and when she left class i stared at her with a face and then i gave up. she took the question paper only, stoopid. haha. anyway ! after school went with ian, frendy and gary. gary went off, frendy went back to school, ian went home. reached home, rot at home and chat with khairilkid. after buke went to interchange with kakak and go take our hari raya shoes, then she went off and i went to meet monster.  dominiccccc !so yeah. dom ajak lepak and so i came. chit chat, laugh, joke around, smoke, laugh, while attempting to do chemistry and physics. hahaha. he can actually tahan my paranoia and lame level zero jokes (as zul would say). here's some random pictures.
woo. so anyway reached home at 10 plus. showered, read a bit then ate a bit, cos mama went geylang to buy stuff. watched project runway and now here i am. (: and like omg ! the clock stuck 12am already which means .. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN FAATIN !
okay so i'm done now. goodnight & sweetdreams, readers. Labels: at my lowest ;, mixed feelings.
sunday.
hey world !
woo. sorry for the late update. so anyway. yesterday woke up and got lazy to got to pottery so stayed at home and watched 'the happening'. omg its uber dumb to me. -.-" okay so got dressed and went to siti's place at about 4 and from there thought of hitting town but hit vivo instead. oh well. ate, talked, sat outside, the usuals. woo. pics !    haha our love for forever 21 and siti's love for gigantic hats. zoom in ! hahahaha. [x went back to sengakang around 8+, took 27 back home. realised i forgot to bring my keys and the house was empty so called iqah. met elfi and his friends at downtown cos syafiq had some chalet and eventually iqah came. sit around, then bused home. [: sunday ! woo. as usual. iqah dragged me along to work today. delifrance breakfast and dallas lunch. haha. siti was bored and so she came over, and eventually elfi came too. so i gotta say today was interesting. hahahha. pics !    entering the shop .. HAHAHAHA lol. as usual, siti and her funny antics. she even took draginfly hairpins and stuck three in her head and called herself 'the dragonfly lady'. HAHA. [xokay soo. then went back to tampines and window shop at tm for a while, then sit around at the park and all went home at about 9. home, ate, showered, dozed off. hehe. woke up, otp, computerrr. haha i'm done. and oh im'ma change my blogskin soon i think. :p okay my mouth hurts from too much smiling. school tmr. common tests next week. to mug or not to mug. HAHA ! okayokay toodles noodles. Labels: mixed feelings.
chalet.
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okay soooo. on friday after school i had oral and before that met sit at bbt and she accompanied me to wait until 2.30 before shew went home, and me, back to school. oral was good. :D went home, showered and changed. met siti at tm before heading to the usual place, like every friday, watch the dudes skate. hmmmmm. so anyway talked a lot with siti. soon headed to tamp park and lepak before siti went home and i walked home. changed and sleeeeep.  lol the pic below = guess who ! HA HA HA !
on saturdayyyy. woke up in between here and there, replied siti saying i wasnt going pottery. haha. so in the afternoon packed all the stuffs and headed to east coast. helped carried all the things to the chalet. mum ordered food ready to be barbequed, and so it was much easier. although there were still loads of food from the aunties and uncles and grandparents side contributions. hahaha. didnt take much pics with my cam, cause uncle took them with his ultra uber cool cameraaa. haha.
but anyway, talked and talked about life and stuff till late and fell asleep eventually. the next day, woke up and showered, got dressed, dad fetched and sent mairah home, and me and iqah to iqah's workplace after getting some breakfast. accompanied iqah at work the whole day. [: there was this super cute girl who came in the store with her dad and i played with her while her dad explored the shop. ADORABLE GILER I TELL YOU !
toodles noodles ! & just when i'm tryina let go. Labels: mixed feelings.
& we just keep pretending.
hey worldddd !
there's speech day today and i didnt attend despite saying that i would. haha. siti's there, faatin's there. boo. palat asked me to go study with him today at national library. i guess i do need to finish my homework. so okay. haha. yesterday after school went home straight. just mourned over my fate and fell asleep eventually. HAHA. anyway. around 4 got bored and realized that i was such a sissy if i was trying to hide from you, so i got dressed and went to meet the gang and watched them skate as usual. woo. it was raining on and off and that made the waether uber cold. watched '30 days of night' on anban's iTouch and scremed the hell outta me at the gory scenes. watched that with siti while she buffed her nails and i made the friendship band thingy into two. zaman primary school eh, tapi fun. woo. the ending was uber fucking sad lah oke, siti teared up. oke oke so anw left for home around 9 and walked home. toodles noodles. & i'm sorry for disappointing ; Labels: mixed feelings.
they make me feel alive for a while.
hey world.
two days of not posting, sorry. yesterday was racial harmony day, and after that had social studies learning journey to the supreme court. new and old. i'll let the pics talk ! :D         she was trying to take a pic of me and i was of her. [x :D     favourite people part three.   sitibaybee ; <3toodles noodles, i'll edit the post later on or something. :D Labels: mixed feelings.
just plain tired.
hey world. sigh. don't know why i feel so damn tired right now. yes i know i should be sleeping already but i cant help it cause i thought someone would be there for me to talk to. but anyway. i feel like drowning myself in the sea at bora-bora like now, seriously. i feel like screaming until my lungs give out. i feel like smoking 100 cigs at one go. i feel like bungee-jumping. i feel like falling off a skateboard again. i feel like indulging in a 100 chocolate banana smoothies and a 100 hip-hop jelly. i feel like falling in love. i want to smile all day long and giggle at the slightest things. i feel like falling. i want to feel special. i want to be with you in the rain. i want to feel carefree. i feel like running away. i feel like running and running. i feel like flying. i feel like laughing until it hurts so bad. maybe it's true, i'm caught up on you and maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too or maybe i'm wrong, and it's all in my head maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said ; like i really want you. i think i need you . baby, i miss you. i'm thinkin of you. Labels: mixed feelings.
fatty !
hey world.
so here are the pics from yesterday's trip out to sentosa with sitibaybee ! ignore my fats waving vigorously to the world. xD       okay so today, woke up around 11. showered, helped mama bake cupcakes ! woo. so anyway. in between eating the cookie dough, texting people, and watching tv, i actually kept on falling asleep. haha. 0.o but anyway. in the evening went to yishun safra, had family dinner with mum's side family. dameera nadrah turns 3 ! woo !   after that borrowed skateboard from uncle, then went home. talked to faistar for a while on the phone, before going online. here i am. and omg iqah suddenly giggled a bit ... while sleeping. yikes ! hahaha. okay im done now. and fuck im outta fags ! -.-" toodles noodles suckers ! Labels: mixed feelings. |
