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shocked & shattered.
sigh.
hey world.
school's a bore, i tell you. oh did you know that i'm finally participating in class ? lol. anyway had two periods of literature, followed by one period of english, which means i had three hours of the same teacher. omg, can die i tell you. -.-" after that had math. then had india meeting, kinda skipped higher malay consultation. anyway i asked the people who went, they said instead tchr talked about going overseas and other crap not related to malay. so yay ! hahaha. okay. going to alter my jeans at afghan, blame me for being short. hahaha. so anyway. meeting up with fad too. too bad lenny cant come. aiya must meet her soon ! weehee. okay so. gtg now, might update later. tomorrow's malay 'o' level. -.-" haha poor bby is away entertaining old folks. teeheeeee. tooldes noodles, <3. Labels: nobody knows;, wth?
oh bestfriend ?
my fault.
to whom it may concern.
i did not lie. so come on, say it to my face. get straight to the point cos all i have is explanations. don't act as if you know because none of you do. my life, my choices. I'm sorry. Labels: wth?
fuck.
you still had the guts to call me?
probably you just read the previous post huh? . hah. *speechless*. hate is a strong word, but i really, really, really don't like you. Labels: wth?
speechless.
it takes too much energy to actually cry every night thinking about you and the moments we've shared. it takes too much energy to remember how i felt when i'm with you. it takes too much energy to constantly feel bad thinking how i might have done you wrong. it takes too much energy to have to hide how i still feel about you. it takes too much energy to stop myself from remembering you, or calling you just because i can't sleep without hearing it. it takes too much energy to remenisce about the past and try not to feel like dying.
it takes way too much energy to hear things about you and im no longer the first to know. it takes way too much energy to stop hurting inside knowing what happened in reality. it takes way too much energy now crying because i feel like a fool for loving someone who pretends to love me back. it takes way too much energy to try not to hear when people tell me to get over you. it takes way too much energy to pretend that i am happy not being the way we used to. it takes way way way too much energy to get that memory out of my head; when i told you that i still loved you, and you saying you still do, and now knowing those were just words. it takes way way way too much energy. and this is the end, of all i can handle. from you. Labels: wth?
wth?
honestly, i miss blogging without having to be careful of what i have to say.
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