To the brim.

i why can't you just fucking speak up why can't you just fucking tell me what the hell is wrong huh can't you bloody stop it already i can't stand it like seriously please stop your shit it's making me puke i wanna slap your bloody face and grap you by the hands and shake some words out of you you moron you crap two million faced bastard asshole fuck this i'm wasting my time. fuck all the years we've spent since this is enough for you to salvage all that shit down the drain if you think it's worth it and that i at least meant something in your god forsaken life then bloody hell speak up bitch i can't stand your oh-nothing-hurts-me attitude like you own this world and youre the best damn thing that's happened to people well guess what right now youre the lowest living creature on this damned earth you can't even look me in the bloody eye huh yeah that's right you can't i'd rather you come straight at me and look at me hard and tell me straight up the grave mistake i've committed that made me deserve to recieve all this BULLSHIT from you. cos i'm filled up to the brim and it's not long before i overflow, you think youre the one with the shoulders being trampled upon ? OH, FUCK LAH please. save it save it just please let me out already unless youre just dying for several huge tight slaps across your face. ha ha ha i guess that's what you want then all the more fine with me.

Labels: beeyotch.

Isolation.

Hey world.

School's officially a dread. Especially recess time.. Sigh. As of today, it's 4 more months left to the first written paper for O levels.

...

And I just want to get it over and done with.

Labels: afraid of change., beeyotch., fake that smile., friends turning into foes?, hypocrisy., O's all that matters now., One by One., sorry to disappoint ;, why., wounds still fresh., yes i love this girl.

wow.

Hey world.

Currently blogging from Siti's house, having mushroom and herbs pasta while watching tv and bloghopping.

I believe that although how much I sometimes may detest her and get driven up the wall due to her antics, after all she is my sister and I do love her to bits and pieces. Its human nature and totally normal to spout hurtful words about someone when you're upset or angry, but in the end blood is thicker than water. And therefore, I have to say this, from a third person point of view, and as a sister, and as a friend.

I know that to you, she may have appeared to be the one who has broken hearts, but I think you should have considered why she would want to run to seek solace and comfort from another who I believe appreciates her more.

For your information, she views you as a close friend, closer than anyone else. But I guess you don't see how she tries to put up with your antics and yet still tries to be there and willing to work things out. When she feels that something's wrong, she doesn't even voice out her inner feelings. Instead, she keeps it to herself and just swallows it because she does not want to worsen situations. If you call yourself a friend, I think you should not have let out what she entrusted to you to others, cause honestly, that's rather disrespectful. And yeah, save the potential crap about being put in a spot since you're caught in the middle of two parties, because if you call yourself a friend, you would've known what to do. Even if both parties were close to you. Even simpler, you didn't even have to get involved in the mess, right ? I think you had a choice.

And to the others that poked their nose in and contributed to making her feel crappy, what did you gain from doing so ? What do you gain from choosing sides ? Do you all even know what the fuck she's been going through ? Do you even bother if she's ill ? Do you all even know the extent of revolting attitude, and words she's been hurled at by him ? I guess not. So fuck that. Piss off, GET YOUR BLOODY FACTS RIGHT.

But truth be told, I have given given her an earful as to what she got herself into, so I'm on no one's side here.

I'm just giving my views from a third person's point of view. Up to you if you wished to be affected by this or not. Hate it or love it, you started this.

And why I feel I have the right to say this ?
I've watched her fall to her lowest, only because, you weren't there. And neither were you.

Hahah. Aite, I'm done here suckers.

Labels: beeyotch.

HAHA !

like eh, pandai, you think im that dumb to not know that i can check your ip ?
like duh of course i checked the ip lah asshole,
and right after you tag as FYZIE,
you yuse the SAME FUCKING IP to tag as DOT.

and you tell me to check once again ?
and tsk, i told you i was sorry and that i couldnt go on.
you said you too had enough and that it was the end.

so what's up with the spamming and trashtalking ?
shows how much of a loser you are right.

i had apologized.
if you didnt want to accept it, there's still no need for all this crap.

Labels: beeyotch.

what the hell.